Friday, December 31, 2010

7 Things to Finish Off 2010...

So Hannah over at The Key To Me tagged me in her 7 things post over 2 weeks ago, and me being lazy and such, just realized I was tagged about 10 minutes ago. I was actually shocked but I'm excited! This whole having readers thing is still pretty new to me! =)

And here we go, 7 Things You Probably Don't Know About Me:

1. I am a hip hop dancer. I started dancing my senior spring of high school and it's been all I think about when I listen to music ever since. One day I aspire to really take it seriously and join a crew or team out in SoCal where they take it seriously and have some really unique flair, like this team from the University of California: Irvine!


2. I have a strange obsession with Staples and school supplies. I have more notebooks and pens than I will ever use, but I like them too much. I also have too many colored paper & binder clips, pretty erasers, interesting and unique mechanical pencils, and other random school supplies!


(Courtesy Google Images)

3. I procrastinate way too much. This never used to be a problem until this year and I'm not sure why. I have gotten into the habit of being lazy and watching Weeds instead of doing homework... but who could resist this face?



(Again, Courtesy Google Images)

4. I watch way too much TV (or rather, online TV.) Some of my favorite shows are the following: Desperate Housewives, Make It or Break It, Weeds, The Office, Parks and Recreation, Community, and Glee (just to name a very small few.) The Office has been my favorite lately!


(Courtesy Google Images ... I bet you can guess the pattern.)

5. I bite my nails. It's my New Year's resolution to stop so I can have beautiful nails once again. There's a funny story behind this one. My sophomore year in high school I got acrylic nails with my best friend at the time. A couple weeks later it was Halloween and we were "dark fairies" so we had to take the nails off to paint them for our costumes. She had bitten her nails for 10 years prior to the nail painting, I had never bitten mine before. Next thing you know, she's done biting hers and all I can do is bite mine. =/ I want to have nails like this by 2012:

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(Courtesy weheartit , which is a change... huh? I'm also very sarcastic.)

Or at least this length. Even though the polish is adorable. I love nail polish too.

6. I love Hello Kitty, and Asian food, boys, and fashion. Sometimes I think I should be Asian, even though I'm all white meat. 75% Irish, 25% mixed European, but I think I should be Asian. =) Or some other ethnicity considering my curves. =)

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(Again courtesy to weheartit)

7. Last, but not least.... I am addicted to beauty vloggers on Youtube, specifically Michelle Phan and Elle & Blair Fowler. The other night I watched 2 straight hours of Michelle Phan's videos. I have a few favorites that I can and will recommend, and I'll put one in here at the end of this. I really like Blair's Braided Top Knot Tutorial , Elle's Beachy Summer Waves Tutorial , Elle's "Bangs in My Face" Tutorial , Michelle's Airplane Make-up Tips , and Michelle's Natural Beauty Tutorial. Some I've tried, some I have yet to but plan on it. I really enjoy make-up and hair and playing around with it to try out different looks, even if I never leave the house or dorm with it on. I'll be sure to share more of it in the future! And here's my absolute favorite one that I did try of Michelle's.


The last part is to tag 7 people, but I don't really have 7 people to tag! So if you want to do it, link over to your blog in the comments or leave it in a comment here! I'd love to read it! And I hope you liked mine! Happy New Year!

Peace, ♥ , and happiness in looking toward 2011! =)

A "Quick" Happy New Year to All of My Readers....

Warning: This video came out really quiet so you're going to want to turn the volume up. Also, I didn't write a script for this, so it is really from my heart and I had a few brain cramps. Please excuse these. Lastly, at the end, I look kinda silly... you've been warned.

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Thursday, December 30, 2010

As tomorrow is New Year's Eve...

and the last day of 2010 (which makes me sad, because what an amazing and truly blessed year 2010 was!) it's time for me to really make my New Year's resolutions. And although I'm not one to really keep them, this past year was different. I kept many of my resolutions for 2010 and I plan to feel the same way on December 30th 2011.

So this year to be a little different, I'm making some New Year's resolutions for my blog... here goes!

By December 31st 2011 I want to have accomplished the following in regards to "Confessions of a College Student" :

1. Be more honest. I want my readers and friends or whoever else reads this to really see the real me. I want you to know that I'm not always perfect and I have faults, that my life isn't easy, glamorous, or special. I want to put the real me out there boldy and not be afraid.

2. I want to reveal my blog to my facebook friends and be okay with being judged by what I write. It will take me a little while, just like it did with my friends, but 2011 is as good a time as any to try it out!

3. I want to blog more openly, and work a schedule out for it so that I don't always find myself posting things half thought through or saying "well, because I was lazy and forgot to post, here's a music video!" No. 2011 will be a year of organization for this place.

4. Lastly, I want to change it up a bit. This idea is big, and something I haven't completely thought through yet so, here it is, in all it's crazy spur of the moment glory. I want to try to bring in some guest writers or even stories from other people. I want this to be a blog where you get different perspectives on what it means to be a college student. I want to bring in more posts about music, new artists, affordable fashion, party advice, I really want to expand the horizons of this blog. I'm excited to see where this brand new, crazy idea will take me!

So those are my blog resolutions for the upcoming year. Hopefully all turns out well and I accomplish those and my other resolutions. What are yours this year? Share if you'd like! =)

Peace, ♥ , and happiness! =)

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

And now...

that I've dumped all of that out there... I can say you'll like my next Musical Monday.


Peace, ♥ , and happiness! =)

I'm still aching, still thinking, still craving, still yearning, well... you get the picture.

California is still on my brain. On my brain and in my heart. On my brain, in my heart, and nagging at me. You guessed it... I'm looking at schools again.

After being almost 100% positive that I was not going to transfer to a school in SoCal, I'm back at it again.

About a month ago, I firmly decided that I was putting no more of my eggs into the transferring to California basket. I was done looking into it, I had given up, thrown my hands in the air, white flag, the whole bit. I decided that I wasn't going to look into it any more to see if I could transfer because the programs were not up to par out there compared to SC. So as previously mentioned, I resigned to the possibility. I gave up, was done.

This week, as the cold has crept up all over me and the snow has been piling on, I am reminded of why I wanted to go in the first place. The weather, the people, and the weather. Most importantly, the weather. And just that for some unexplainable, unfathomable reason, I'm almost unhealthily obsessed with SD... you know, nbd.

So I'm sitting here since 8 pm EST (2 hours and 16 minutes later...) looking at schools again. And I've discovered that even though the schools are not up to par exactly with the program I'm in at SC, it is completely and totally do-able. You betcha! I could do it if I wanted to. Only problem is, now that I've decided I'm done with looking (or did decide and then reversed that decision, since you know, I'm awesome like that...) I've discovered that all UC schools only accept transfer applications for their FALL quarters and these applications are due in November... so I'm pretty much done for. Unless you know, I feel like transferring when I'm a senior at which point it would be pretty much pointless.

Confession of a College Student: So here I am again, feeling sorry for myself trying to find a way to make this all work again. But knowing my luck, it won't. Here I go again, getting my hopes up when in all probability they will be crushed again. And I can't help it. I know I'm where I belong academically, but is it where I belong physically, emotionally, geographically? I don't think so. Why should I stay here if I can gain the same degrees, a similar way, in a much more pleasing location??? I don't know. You tell me. So I'm debating, and praying, and thinking. Wish me luck, because I have no idea what I'm going to do.

Peace, ♥ , and happiness! =)

Happy...

one year anniversary to "Confessions of a College Student" !

This year this blog has done a lot for me. It has served as an easy place for me to share my thoughts, meet new people, and let my friends inside my head. It has been a blessing, and to think I started it at a time when everything in my life was really up in the air! Thank you all for reading (faithfully or not) I truly appreciate your interest in my boring, yet crazy life!

Peace, ♥ , and happiness!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

News Flash: I AM BEAUTIFUL.

Warning: This is a personal post, it may get into some detail about personal things, walk away if you don't care to read about that. Also this is probably going to be the longest blog post EVER so get ready, settle in, have a snack, whatever you need to do, and know that I probably will take a few breaks in this post to do the same for myself.... with that said, let's begin!

News Flash: I think I'm beautiful. Inside. Outside. Completely gorgeous in every facet of the word.

You do too? Oh, you don't. Now that doesn't really surprise me because not many do either. Or at least it seems that way... and it's taken me a while to be able to admit it out loud.

In fact, it's taken me a while to finally come up with the courage to break this topic out and blog about something that happened last week that really upset me and depressed me. But I'm going to tell you (if there is a you...) because I need to get it out.

Last week I went to the gym with my brothers and one of their friends and while they played a couple rounds of 21 (a type of pick-up basketball game) I worked out. Simple enough. No harm done, and we even had some fun on the basketball court before we called it a night. All in all I would say that I had a fun time. Then came the ride home... where, as it was me and 3 immature boys, the topic of discussion on the 30 minute ride home became girls.

"Oh, so and so is so hot! BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH!" said one of my older brothers of a girl who I am friends with/have known my whole life. Now, yes, this girl is pretty, but I would never say she's knock-down drag-out gorgeous. Hot is not the word I would use to describe her. Partly because she is quite lacking in the personality department, but also because she just isn't the most gorgeous girl in the world, even when her face is plastered with the best make up. I love her to death, she's a good friend, but like I said, on a list of adjectives to describe her I wouldn't say hot is one of them.

So, of course, I open my mouth to refute the statement. "Well, she's pretty, but she's not what I would call hot..." This opened my world to statements about what exactly made her hot, which basically consisted of "her body" "her body" and you guessed it! "her body."

The rest of the ride I sat there in silence and disappointment to realize that this really is all that matters to guys, including those that I had thought were respectable and completely different than your average guy. I guess I was wrong, and this hurt me.

When we finally got home I got to talking to my dad about this, as he usually sides with me on matters such as this. But that night was different for he seemed to think differently than I did. Which is fine, my dad and I will not always see eye to eye about absolutely everything, but for this, I thought he would agree that it was pretty disappointing that all they were concerned about was this girl's body. He didn't. His excuse: "boys will be boys."

As true as that may be, I didn't think it was any kind of excuse at all. So I went to bed that night thinking that maybe this is why I've never had a boyfriend. Maybe this is why guys don't care about me, don't like me, don't seem to be attracted to me at all. It made sense, yeah, I'm awesome, I know that, you don't have to comment on this post and tell me that I'm a great person, because I know that. But all that talk had me thinking that maybe being awesome wasn't enough. Maybe I need to be a size 0 to get a guy, maybe I need to be smaller, have no stretch marks, no cellulite, get some plastic surgery, who knows? Maybe being averagely pretty and having an average sized body with a great personality isn't good enough, maybe I need to dress like a slut, push up bras, low cut shirts, stomach exposed...

And then reality struck me... for what? at what cost? why? I know I'm beautiful. I know I will never be a size 0. I know I don't need to dress like a cheap hooker. I know this because I'm worth a lot more than that. I'm worthy of respect, genuine interest, and love. I AM WORTH IT. If guys don't see that, then it's their loss... I may go the rest of my life single, I may never get a first real kiss. I may die alone, but I don't care about that. I care about being respected. All that matters to me is that I die knowing I never settled for less, I never lost respect, and I never got less than I deserved. If I die surrounded by friends and family who love me, then that's fine with me. At least I'll know my time here was not wasted. So here's my confession.

Confession of a College Student: I was depressed last week. I felt inadequate. I felt repulsive, ugly, and fat. I felt as though I would never find love. But then I was okay with myself because at a size 7 with all natural DD breasts, a curvy backside, and a little extra around my middle, I know I'm beautiful and some day someone will love me just the way I am. And because of that I'm not afraid to confess that I'm not looking for just some fling, I'm looking for real, true love, and the man I will spend the rest of my life with. I don't care if that makes me old fashioned, I'm not looking to waste my time with a guy who will leave me in 3 months. I want a husband, after I graduate college, and not directly after. I'm looking for someone real, someone amazing, and someone who will appreciate me for me, and if that's not out there then God doesn't want it for me. But I am fine with ME. I am amazing. Just the way I am. As seen below. =)



Peace, ♥ , and happiness! =)


Thursday, December 16, 2010

Home.

I got home around 9:00 PM last night. I found out I'll be working over break, which will help me earn the money to go back to San Diego for spring break! =) And possibly out to Missouri and Baltimore to see some friends that it has been way too long since I last saw. Today I am just lounging around my house with my younger brother N because my mom is at work even though she was supposed to be home about a half hour ago. Tonight R has a basketball game and then we are going to come home to decorate the Christmas tree! Yay! I love this time of year, although not like summer, which I honestly can't wait for because, you guessed it! I AM GOING BACK TO SAN DIEGO! =)

Well that's all for now because I should go get dressed and ready for my day! =) (Even though it's 12:42 PM) lol

Peace, ♥ , and happiness! =)

PS- Be sure to check out my Tumblr!


Wednesday, December 8, 2010

FINALLY!

Tumblr is finally back up and my video worked! Check it out here! Also you can always find my Tumblr page here.

Peace, ♥ , and happiness! =)

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Well...

I have a Tumblr post coming soon. So long as it stops being stupid.

I also have a surprise.



Check the change yo.

I went brunette... and geek. All at the same time. lol. sporadic decisions.

Peace, ♥ , and happiness! =)

Sunday, December 5, 2010

I've neglected this blog... =(

And I totally had a new post coming for you guys via my Tumblr page, but it's down, so you'll have to wait. I'll link it up to this blog but I want to encourage you guys to keep checking over there for the latest! It's easier to post there especially from my phone, so I do more frequently than I post here, I usually post there multiple times a day. So be sure to check back often!