Tuesday, July 19, 2011

I Will Now Update You On My Life...

Or I will attempt to do so. Although my heart is still not in writing at the moment, I want to make myself write about everything that's happened since I last posted, which as you may or may not remember, it was all about how my life "sucks." Which I want to clarify that me saying "my life sucks" is just me being a drama queen. My life is really not all that bad.

So diving right into it. About 2 weeks ago I got to meet up with my friend Keri in Boston for a salsa overnight! We arrived in the city in the early evening, had some frozen yogurt at Berry Line, and went and got ready for a night at the salsa club! The night was filled with a little bit of drama and a lotta bit of fun!

The next day we got up early, had breakfast in Coolidge Corner, walked through Brookline and over to school, through Kenmore, along the Esplanade, grabbed Starbucks on Newbury Street and just generally roamed around the town. It was amazing. And very much needed. While walking along the Esplanade, we discovered this lovely man doing Zumba in an "outdoor gym." Enjoy the clip.

I also got some really great pictures of our adventures. Or rather of the skyline. Or whatever. But here they are:






More Skyline


And even more Skyline


And last but not least, a bike buried in the Charles River.

In other unrelated news, last week some exciting things that I am not entirely comfortable sharing happened. I'll just say that when I can tell you about what's happening, you'll all be the first (or second...) to know. But I will say that things are going well for me in at least one area of my life.

More updates and good news: I am now moving back to school August 26 instead of September 4 because of pre-season Leadership Training and Street Team! Basically what that means is that since I'm on the E-board (executive board) of a student organization I was invited to take part in a week-long training session for new leaders of student organizations. And now on September 4, instead of moving myself into my dorm, I will be part of the Street Team, which assists new students with unloading their family vehicles into carts and moving those carts with their belongings into their new dorms. So I will be moving in on August 26 (exactly one week after my birthday and the day of my older brother's 25th birthday!) and I will have that weekend to frolic and play in Boston before I have to get down to business on Monday morning. :)

I finally finished my training at work and had my first real shift last night. It was crazy and stressful but everything ended up okay! And I am now more confident than ever that I'm going to eventually like this job and end up okay.

Lastly, I'm going to Boston again on Sunday to see my boo! (My close friend!) Kiara, Keri, and I have made a date for lunch and pastries in the North End and Swan Boat rides on the common and in the public garden! Tentatively.

And that's about it for the moment. I will try to be better about posting, I think writing this all out made my writer's block go away for a little while. Maybe I'll work on some posts tonight!

Peace, ♥, and happiness!

Monday, July 18, 2011

It's 3 AM and It's Been Too Long...

To say that I've been away too long is an understatement.

To say that I've been busy would be a lie.

To say that my job sucks would be a slight overstatement.

To say that I'll be back soon might or might not be a lie.

I don't know when I'll get around to coming back and blogging a bit more, even though I really want to. My heart just isn't in writing at the moment and it's hard to write when you lack the motivation and desire. A la my journal had entries every day for 2 weeks and now I haven't really written in it (except for a half-@$$ job I did last night trying to write down something "important" only to give up and sign off a half page later.) So I'll be back as soon as I can, which may not be very soon at all. Or it might be when I wake up in the morning. Who knows?

Monday, July 4, 2011

Now I Don't Mean to Be a Negative Nancy...

*Warning: Major self pity and whatever coming your way, feel free to avoid reading this post if you aren't looking to read about that. I'm not looking for sympathy or compassion or anything, I just need a place to let it all out right now. I realize I'm about to sound like a spoiled brat or something. I don't care. Again, feel free not to read.*

So I don't mean to be a Negative Nancy here, but that's exactly what I'm about to be. Life kinda sucks right now. Well, who am I trying to kid? Life has pretty much sucked since I had to leave school... and I'll explain why.

First, I'm one of those crazy people who likes school. I've always enjoyed it. I've never dreaded going to class and learning, unless the teacher/professor was mean and/or awful or it was super early in the morning. I would probably be a professional student for the rest of my mortal life if I was allowed to. So school ending, especially since I've been going to school and living in the dorms in Boston, has been a bittersweet thing. I love school. Make fun if you wish. = Way in which life currently sucks #1

Second, I really miss my friends, and although I've seen one and am going to see another this weekend, I miss the closeness and bonds we share when we're located in the same building on the same floor, just feet from each other's doors. I miss being able to run to one another's rooms when I have problems (aka now) and just vent, get a hug, cry, wallow, watch novelas with Kiara, move on, and vow to work hard to make our problems disappear. I also miss the carefree nights we share when we are having a movie night, go out salsa dancing, or just romping around the city. They're all doing fantastically and are having at least semi-fun summers, but here I am, stuck, making me the bum of the group. = Way in which life currently sucks #2

Third, I'm getting terribly sick of/annoyed with my grandmother. God knows I love her to death. I love her more than life itself. I couldn't imagine life if I didn't have her. But I am going insane dealing with her impatience. There is only so long that one person can be patient with another, and I'm about to lose my cool. I've been patient with her for two weeks and I'm nearing my wits end, but she's my grandmother, so I can't. = Way in which life currently sucks #3

Fourth, I hate my job. Oh yeah, I have a job now. I'm a hostess. And I hate it. I have to memorize the menu, and tons of other stuff. It's overwhelming, annoying, and I don't like the people I have to work with. But I'm stuck because I need a job, and I don't really have much of a choice at this point. So I dread going to work every day. = Way in which life currently sucks #4

Fifth (and I'll stop here because it could go on all day) it sucks to feel replaced. Which is what I'm feeling. And it's annoying to know that it's that easy for someone to replace you.

Okay, that's all the self pity and self loathing I have for now. I do hopefully have some exciting things coming up in my life and I'll be sure to post some cool stuff soon. I do have some ideas circulating in this bored, crazy, weird brain of mine...